You have never asked to be born this why
To be the reason why everyone is splitting away
To be told you are an addition to a problem
rather than being a remedy
To be the happiest person in the world
yet in deepest of your heart, you are fragile
To be wanting to die
and not being a chaos maker anymore
To be always making everyone happy
let yourself die
To be the one who gave up
and shut your world away from theirs
To be someone who never have power
to lock in a decision
To be a rejection to everyone
since the very beginning
The person talking is the person who couldn't bear anything anymore
because
even though they said the truth
they are always the ones who wrong
the society make them so
the rules of life make them so
I have always wanted to die
since the very beginning I learn
HOW TO LIVE
there are people who are visually by my side
but
ironically there is none in leading me
anyway
the only thing I can decide is
to shut myself
and
start living alone
you are just a burden, Afiqa
nothing more and nothing less.
I have always understand the idea
that privacy shouldn't be told to anyone
but
I am nothing but a weak caliph
In certain times
I need to express everything I couldn't,
verbally,
and realized
Writing is the way.
I AM NEVER FINE
