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1/3 of the journey

I have experienced much (refer to previous entry)

all the sugar in college days until the nastiest betrayals 

to the point that I regret of coming and enrolling

and the only thing that keeps me going is MY FAMILY

to the point I have never thought those kind of people existed

because I was loved by everyone in my past

that every time I tell them how my days without them going they shrug me and said

'IF ONLY WE WERE THERE, THEY WOULDNT DARE TO TORMENT YOU'

I remember how I cried to my lecturer telling I wanted to quit everything and all she tell me was

'BE STRONG, YOU HAVE A WEAK HEART'

I told her the reason was 'I see everyone quitting' but to be honest that wasnt truth I'm telling

'I WAS SICK OF THE PEOPLE HERE, I WAS BETRAYED TO THE LEVEL YOU COULDN'T IMAGINE'

Well, you'd say 'that was just a little of the world, honey' you are right  but I was right too

this is a whole new experienced to me  
I ease myself by telling this You are not good enough to be their friends, that's why. You are lacking in so many ways, that's why they think you are incompatible to be their friends, that's why you just dont fit in their image, that's why

BLAME IT ALL TO YOURSELF

you are the one who did the wrong choice by trusting in the friendship 

that maybe you are the only one who consider them YOUR FRIENDS

college is definitely the starting  for all the EVIL in this world where everyone transform to DEVIL in a blink of your eyes

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

WHY DO I TALKING ABOUT THIS?